I am a daughter, a mother, a wife, a sister, a friend, a Christian, a volunteer, an activist, a humanitarian, a sinner and a survivor. I am struggling with Depression, PTSD, Anxiety and chronic physical pain. I want out of life what most people want: Peace, love, joy and good health.
I am truly as screwed up as  person can be. I'm certain there are people out there worse off than me and this isn't a pity party. It is a journey of self discovery through life experiences. This is a day in the mind of a person struggling with mental health issues. This is the good the bad the ugly and the bare naked truth as I see it.
Today how I see it is that people are difficult to deal with and some of them really suck.
I feel broken, forgotten, unimportant and alone. Not good for a depressed person to have these types of days. Regardless it is a part of life and things happen out of our control. So I will lift my voice up to God in prayer.
Lord, Father, please be with me right now as I struggle. Please lift me up and fill me up with your Holy Spirit. Speak to me as you wrap me in your comforting embrace. Whisper into my ear your instructions to guide me. See my sorrow and replace it with Joy. See my pain and replace it with peace. Fill the holes in my heart. For now, I will be still and rest in you. Thank you for loving me as I am so undeserving and imperfect. Please guide my path according to your will. In Jesus's name I pray. Amen.